Monday, January 30, 2006 x 1:49:00 AM

I guess a recent event have caused me to be this way…

I felt as if I was a beggar…

Waiting… and waiting… for signal… of any form… maybe a call or a message.

I did.

Wow! Its wonderful isn’t it… how an outing can make you feel like a useless piece of shit…

I owe it to myself…

Yup I am to blame…

I can never look at the three of u the same again.

But don’t worry.

You are not to blame…

I owe it to myself.

Should have kept it strictly professional…

Why don’t we begin…

As of this second…

I hate myself for not inviting myself…

haha… oh well. Goodbye.

Oh shit! Can someone kindly stop this tears from flowing. really...
I don't feel a thing... but it seems like a bloody river...